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Wednesday, January 31, 2007

Another day with nothing.

I did the dumbest thing on earth - Cancel my discussion session to go to town to catch him after work.

I started to wait at 5 outside far east after msging him at 4. So I thought he might turn up after seeing my message. And I was thinking it was better to talk in person after all the arguments we had over the phone.

For his lack of time, its not like I didn't put in any effort. Most times I will travel to orchard from boon lay to meet him for dinner. And sometimes I would go to town to meet him for lunch and then hang around till he knocks off and we will have dinner together before the clock strikes 10 and we have to be on our way home.

So I was waiting. Till 630 he didn't turn up so I thought I'd send him another msg and finally a phone call which gave me a hint he's phone is low on batt.

Looks like I'm always destined for one thing: Tragedy.

So I went home hoping he would see my msges and missed calls and perhaps, call back.

Till 12, I still haven't got anything. I msged his gd friend and my friend too abt his whereabouts. Turns out he was with them and he went home after a bad headache. I felt like a total freak and loser.

What more can I say? Tragedy. And I have to be told by a friend to know what happened to him? Who was he dating? His friends or me?

Tragedy. He asked me to be understanding and supportive towards his idea of opening a game cafe with his friends. He says its for our future. Well, there isn't going to be any future if he's going to push me down his list of priorities. It just doesn't work that way.

Ask me to join his friends so that we can be together when he's working on the cafe thing. Easy said. Most times I am barred from their exclusive "meetings". His friends say he's hen-pecked, so when I'm around he can't make his own decisions? I don't get it. Someone tell me how to understand this? Who would want to meet up with ppl who discuss things like that behind you. Me, definitely not. Thinking of how they joked about another girl from the same grp abt her obsession with this guy from the same grp, its uncomfortable.

He's always the victim when he's with them. So who's with me? It's complicated. Its getting worse when he isn't talking to me much these days. I don't know what's going on his side or should I say, their side. So sue me if I'm obsessed, paranoid, selfish, whatever. I feel so much negativity I can't just force a smile and pretend to be supportive. And its not like I haven't been? I guess when he's into a new thing in his life he just neglects the others. Just like when we first started out.

My conclusion: Honey moon period is over.

Grrrr...1/31/2007 01:03:00 AM

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